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Rediscovery (part 1/2)

Title: Rediscovery

Author: dhamphir

Fandom: SG-1 (AU)

Pairing: Sam/Janet, Janet/OFC

Rating: NC17

Word count: ~9000

Summary: AU. Sam makes the mistake of her life and Janet begins a new life. Will a chance meeting several years later bring them back together, or has there been too much lost between them?

Disclaimer: SG-1 its characters belong to B.W, J.G. and MGM. No copyright infringement intended, no money be made.

A/N1: This is the result of a prompt given to me by [info]romansilence in this post. She supplied the first sentence.

A/N2: Special thanks to [info]karathephantom  for the quick beta!

 

 

Rediscovery

 

 

Samantha Carter never knew how precious life is ‘til she had lost Janet, the best part of her life. And it was her own fault.

 

All Janet tried to do was get her to get some rest and eat some food, to take care of herself. And what did she do? She yelled at Janet. She told her to leave her the hell alone, to let her finish her work, to rescue the colonel. Janet had said that if Sam wanted to be left alone, then that’s exactly what she was going to do.

 

Janet hadn’t stepped foot in her lab since then. But Sam didn’t even notice. She was so single-minded that it didn’t occur to her that Janet hadn’t been around, not even to see if she’d gotten any sleep. She didn’t notice Janet’s total absence, not only from her lab and life, but also from the base.

 

She only vaguely realized Janet wasn’t around when Daniel, Teal’c, and she waited at the ramp with the Edoran refugees. It wasn’t until they returned and had their post-mission physicals that she noticed Janet wasn’t around. She asked Dr. Peterson where Janet was, but he said he didn’t know.

 

Sam was so tired she didn’t risk getting on her bike. She went to her quarters on base and crashed. After 18 hours of solid sleep she felt pretty much human when she woke up. She dressed in civilian clothes and headed to the infirmary to see if Janet was working.

 

“Hey, Cheryl. Is Janet working today?”

 

Lt. Richards seemed a little hesitant. “Uh... no.”

 

“Okay, thanks. Have a good day,” Sam cheerfully called on her way out.

 

Then... she rode her bike to Janet’s house. She was confused when she pulled up and saw a strange car in the driveway and the front door open. She clipped her helmet to her bike and walked to the front door.

 

“Janet?” she called out as she entered.

 

“Oh! Hello. You’re early, but come on in.”

 

“Early?” Sam asked as she eyed the brunette that was about her height.

 

“For our appointment. I’m Renee Lambert, the real estate agent representing the seller. You’re Mrs. Evans, aren’t you?”

 

“No, I’m not. You say you represent the seller – do you mean Janet Fraiser?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“How long has the house been for sale?”

 

“Dr. Fraiser and her daughter moved a little over a month ago.”

 

“Where to?”

 

Miss Lambert arched an eyebrow. If this woman didn’t know where her client had moved to then it wasn’t her place to say. “I’m afraid I can’t say.”

 

Sam sensed she wouldn’t get anything more from the realtor, so she left and raced to the mountain.

 

~~~

 

General Hammond looked up at the knock on his open office door. “Major? He was surprised to see her in civvies.

 

“May I speak with you, sir?”

 

“Come in.” He indicated for her to have a seat. “What can I do for you?”

 

“It’s about Janet– Dr. Fraiser.”

 

He leaned back in his chair. “We’ll definitely miss the major around here.” He sighed, thinking about a certain surly and sulky colonel. “We already do.”

 

“Major?”

 

“Yes. She received her promotion almost two months ago.”

 

“What happened?”

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“Why did she leave? Where is she?”

 

He frowned. “Are you trying to tell me you don’t know?” he asked incredulously.

 

Sam simply shook her head.

 

“Well, her original posting here was up and she requested a transfer rather than extending her tour of duty. I tried to get her to reconsider, but she said she needed a change. She was going to resign her commission if necessary. Rather than allow the Air Force to lose such a valuable officer, I got her the transfer – it’s not like she hasn’t received scrutiny and interest from a number of important projects. Quite frankly, Major, I’m more than a little surprised you weren’t aware of any of this, especially considering your friendship with Dr. Fraiser and Cassandra.”

 

She dropped her gaze and nervously fidgeted. “I was... busy, trying to...”

 

He nodded. “Trying to find a way to rescue Colonel O’Neill.”

 

“Yeah.”

 

~~~

 

Cassie’s cell phone rang during dinner. It had been a thirteenth birthday present, but it came with a set of rules – it was only to be used in case of emergency, to contact her mother if she was going to be late for any reason, and never ever to be talked on at the table. However, out of habit, she snaked it out of her pocket before noting the look her mother was giving her. As she set it down she noted the caller ID on it.

 

“Mom! It’s Sam!” Cassie had really missed Sam over the last three and half months. She’d left a number of messages for her hero, but had never gotten a return call. Her mother had tried to explain that Sam was extremely busy at work trying to find a way to get Jack O’Neill back from where he was stranded. Cassie may have understood, at least to a point, but she was hurt by Sam’s total disregard for her... and for her mother. She had been sad for her mother when it became apparent that she and Sam were no longer together.

 

Janet nodded. “Okay, you can talk to her. But this doesn’t mean the rules have changed.”

 

“Thanks, Mom.” Cassie opened her phone. “Sam?”

 

“Hey, kiddo. How you doing?”

 

“Okay. I take it you finally rescued Jack,” the girl said. Neither Janet, nor Sam, missed the trace of bitterness in her voice.

 

“Yeah. And the Edoran refugees have gone home.”

 

“That’s good.”

 

“Listen, Cassie, I’m sorry ab–”

 

“You should be!” the young teen snapped, surprising both her mother and Sam. “I left you mes­sages that you never returned. I called so many times, Sam, but I wasn’t important enough for you to even bother with a phone call. And neither was Mom. You were mean and broke her heart, Sam.”

 

Janet looked up with a frown but didn’t say anything.

 

“How could you? How could you turn your back on us like that? You don’t do that to people you love!” Cassie hung up and looked at her mom with large tears brimming in her eyes.

 

Janet’s heart broke for her daughter. “Come here,” she said gently, and enfolded the girl in her arms as she started to cry.

 

Cassie clung to her mother, conflicting emotions twisting up inside of her. She’d been happy to see Sam’s name on her phone, to finally hear from her ‘hero.’ But then all the disappointment and hurt of the past months came boiling to the surface and she got angry. She knew Sam had an important job, but she also knew that she spent more time than was really necessary at work – it had been the subject of more than one argument between her mom and Sam.

 

~~~

 

Sam looked at her phone in dismay. She didn’t think Cassie would ever turn on her like that. She thought back to the last time Janet had come to her lab, just to get her to eat something and to get a little sleep. Nothing unreasonable... Yet she’d yelled at Janet to leave her the hell alone. She’d been so focused on her task that she didn’t even realize it had been almost two and half months since that day. She’d done the impossible – again – to save Colonel O’Neill’s life, but–

 

No, that wasn’t right. She didn’t save his life. She only facilitated his rescue after three and half months rather than eight or nine months.

 

“He shouldn’t have to wait that long.”

 

That’s what she’d told Janet. And her family shouldn’t have had to wait three and half months for her.

 

But they didn’t wait for her! Anger flared, only to be doused with reality. If she were honest, she believed they would have waited if not for the way she’d treated Janet, the way she’d pushed her away, the way she’d completely ignored both her and Cassie.

 

All the times growing up when she’d wished her father would come home she had never once doubted that he loved her. Yes, the Air Force took him away, sometimes for long periods of time, but he always let her mother, her brother, and her know that he loved them. He called whenever he could. As much as she hated her father for letting work keep him from picking up her mother that fateful day she was killed, he’d never turned his back on his family... like Sam had done to hers. When she got older, she’d been able to make peace with her father; she understood it wasn’t his fault. But this... the fault for this clearly lay with her.

 

Every day, for a week, she called and left messages on Janet’s and Cassie’s phones. But then the numbers were changed. She had no way to contact them, no way to work things out, no way to know where they were. She’d tried asking the general, but he indicated Janet had been posted to another highly classified assignment. Sam had asked Teal’c, but he didn’t know where she was. He had said his goodbyes to her, but understood about her new assignment being classified.

 

Daniel didn’t accept such things at face value. He had pushed Janet about why she was leaving the SGC, and where she was going. The harder he pushed, the more tightlipped Janet had become, until finally she’d told him that if she wanted people to know where she was going she’d tell them. When she left the mountain that day it was for the last time.

 

~~~

 

Janet and Cassie were both tired. They’d spent all weekend looking at houses with their realtor. Renee Lambert, the agent that sold her house in Colorado Springs, had gotten an excellent price for it – actually more than Janet’s original asking price, so they were looking for a new house to buy in Frederick, Maryland.

 

After a dinner of takeout, they sat down and looked at all the pictures of the listings they really liked. Some were outside the city limits and had more land; others had smaller lots but were in great neighborhoods. All the ones Cassie liked had pools – a fact which didn’t surprise her mother at all. In the end, they decided on a house in town, but with a nice, large backyard... and a pool. Both were happy to be getting out of the temporary housing at Fort Detrick. If everything went accord­ing to plan, they’d be able to move in only a couple of weeks.

 

Work was also going very well for Janet. Even though she was working at Fort Detrick, she was not with USAMRIID (US Army Medical Research Institute of Infectious Diseases). After all, she was Air Force, not Army. But she was part of the AFMIC (Armed Forces Medical Intelligence Center) working with other doctors and researchers from the Air Force, the Army, and the Navy.

 

The work afforded Janet a more stable and regular work schedule, which in turn made things easier at home with her daughter. As a single parent she felt it was important to be a stable presence in her daughter’s life. She’d already seen the effects on Cassie of having Sam retreat from their lives, and she was glad to not always wonder if she would be away from home for days at a time. She found the regular schedule enabled the two of them to grow closer, and a part of her wished she’d done something about her work sooner.

 

Cassie had the rest of the summer to get settled in before starting at her new school. The neigh­borhood their new house was in had a number of kids in her age range. It was mostly a civilian neighborhood, but with Fort Detrick as the largest employer in the county, there was an under­standing about not asking too many questions of those who worked there. All in all, everything was going quite well for both mother and daughter.

 

~~~

 

Back at the SGC, the same could not be said for Major Samantha Carter. Colonel Jack O’Neill had shut out his teammates and gone undercover to catch the thieves taking technology from their allies. Afterwards, the soldier in her understood why he’d acted the way he did, but she had a hard time with it on a personal level. She’d felt betrayed by his callousness.

 

The next several missions didn’t go all that well. They were captured and tortured by the Bedro­sians. The only reason they’d escaped was because of Nyan’s help. Daniel had disappeared while they investigated the pyramid on P7X-377 and she and Jack got sick from the muon radiation. Eventually they were able to ‘find’ Daniel, but if not for the help of his grandfather, he would have been lost to them forever. And then Thor showed up with the replicators.

 

As usual, it was one crisis after another. But it was different. Janet was not there to treat them and make sure they recovered. She wasn’t there to put the colonel in his place, or to take care of Daniel when his appendix needed to be removed. Janet wasn’t there to make everything seem more manageable. And she wasn’t there to share a home cooked meal, a smile at the end of the day, or warm arms to sleep in at night.

 

Two years later, General Hammond suffered a severe heart attack and had to retire. Colonel O’Neill, who was on the verge of losing his field status due to yet another knee injury, was pro­moted to Brigadier General and took over command of the SGC. Colonel Mark Chance was brought in as the new CO of SG-1. Less than a year after that, Daniel married and left the SGC. Dr. Chris Lively replaced him.

 

Sam didn’t get involved with anyone else for a long time, but eventually started dating a police officer named Pete Shanahan. They even became engaged. But a week before the wedding Sam, finally admitting to herself that she just didn’t love him like she had loved Janet, called everything off.

 

It had been almost five years since Janet had left, and Sam had never been the same. She had never stopped loving Janet. She often wondered what the petite doctor was up to. What was she doing? Where was she living?

 

Who was she loving?

 

~~~

 

Cassie was excited to go away to college. She had been accepted into the BS/MD program at George Washington University. Very few people were accepted into their accelerated six-year medical program. She didn’t think she wanted to be a virologist like her mother, but she had no doubts about wanting to be a doctor.

 

Janet took time off from work to drive her daughter to school in DC. She was pleased that Cassie didn’t choose a west coast school. With her an hour away in DC, Cassie was far enough away to feel independent, but close enough that she could come home when she felt like it. And truth be told, Cassie was secretly happy with the situation as well. She and her mother were very close. She also loved Karen, her mother’s girlfriend.

 

Karen Rivers had entered Janet’s life unexpectedly. Janet certainly had not been looking for a relationship, but Karen had almost inconspicuously entered her life, her heart, and finally her bed. She was a civilian contractor at Fort Detrick, a computer programmer. They’d met when Karen was brought in to diagnose and fix a problem when her section’s computer system went buggy. There had been an easy camaraderie between them from the moment they’d met. They became friends right away. Things had progressed from there and Janet rediscovered what it felt like to be truly loved and happy.

 

~~~

 

A couple of years after breaking things off with Pete, Sam, a lieutenant colonel, had been offered com­mand of SG-1. It was something she’d always thought she wanted. But when the offer was made, she found herself suddenly overwhelmed by feelings of suffocation and dread. To General O’Neill’s utter astonishment, and her own, she not only declined the position, she also resigned her commis­sion. She just couldn’t do it anymore. She didn’t love it like she used to. She no longer looked for­ward to going off-world, meeting new peoples, or discovering alien technology. She needed to escape.

 

So, Sam packed her things up and took a teaching position at Harvard University’s Department of Astronomy in Cambridge, Massachusetts. Teaching physics to graduate students helped Sam rediscover her love of science through the excitement of her students. Their eagerness and love of discovery reignited that which she’d lost somewhere along the way. For the first time in longer than she cared to remember she felt at ease with herself.

 

~~~

 

The party to celebrate Janet’s promotion to colonel was actually a dual celebration... because it was the same day the military had finally abolished the ridiculously stupid Don’t Ask/Don’t Tell policy. Of course, they didn’t have much of leg to stand on anymore, since the Supreme Court had declared all bans of same-sex marriage unconstitutional. So, they abolished the policy shortly after same-sex marriage became the law of the land.

 

Janet gave a short speech at her promotion party, in which she publically acknowledged her relationship with Karen for the first time. In truth it had been the look on Karen’s face that made her day so special, rather than the promotion.

 

Two months later Cassie came home from school to stand up for her mother as she and Karen were married. A little over a year after that they received the diagnosis – Karen had late stage ovarian cancer. She died only four months later, at home, with Janet and Cassie at her side.

 

~~~

 

The summer before Cassie’s final year at med school she didn’t go home. Instead, she had received a highly prestigious externship at George Washington University Hospital. It was fun, challenging, kept her busy, and gave her a real taste of what life after graduation was going to be like.

 

Cassie found herself with a completely unplanned free weekend. Usually she only had one day off at a time. After a nice, long, telephone conversation with her mother, she headed out to the Pentagon City Mall. It had been a long time since she’d had the time to just leisurely browse and window shop.

 

Around 2:00 on the afternoon, she went to the food court to get some late lunch. She had only been sitting at the table for a few minutes when she thought she saw someone she recognized, someone from the past. Before she even realized it, she stood and walked over to the blonde waiting in line at the Kabuki Sushi counter. Her hair was long, well below her shoulders, but it was her.

 

“Sam?”

 

Sam turned at the sound of her name.

 

“It is you!”

 

It took the blonde half a second to realize who the young woman was. It had been a little over ten years since she’d seen her. “Cassie?!”

 

The two women hugged and spoke simultaneously.

 

“What are you doing here?” “How are you?”

 

They chuckled.

 

Cassie smiled. “I’ve got my lunch over here,” she said with a gesture at her table. “Why don’t you join me when you get yours?”

 

“I’d love to.”

 

Cassie returned to her table and was joined by Sam only a few minutes later.

 

“So, what are you doing here in DC?” Cassie asked.

 

“I’m here for a symposium being held at the Smithsonian Astrophysical Observatory. What about you? What are you doing here?”

 

“I’m in medical school here at George Washington. I start my final year this fall, but I got an externship at the hospital this summer, so I stayed here instead of going home.”

 

“You’re already in your last year? Wow. That’s impressive.”

 

“I got into a six-year accelerated program.”

 

“That’s great, Cassie.”

 

“So what about you, Sam? Are you still at the SGC?”

 

“No. In fact I’m no longer in the Air Force.”

 

“You’re kidding?! I thought you’d be in for life.”

 

“I did, too,” the blonde replied with a smile. “I’m teaching at Harvard in their Department of Astronomy.”

 

“Cool. You sound you like it.”

 

“I do. I’ve learned to love the science again.”

 

“I’m happy for you, Sam.”

 

The older woman started to pick at her lunch nervously. “Listen, Cassie, about what happened...”

 

Cassie reached over and covered one of Sam’s hands with her own. “It’s okay, Sam. It was a long time ago. I’m not mad anymore. In truth, I was more hurt than mad at the time.”

 

“I want to you know that I am sorry for the way I behaved. I don’t have an excuse – I never did.”

 

“Apology accepted.”

 

They shared another smile.

 

“So, how’s your mom?”

 

Cassie sighed a little. “She’s doing pretty good. She’s been keeping busier than usual with work since...”

 

“Since what?”

 

“Since Karen died... ovarian cancer.”

 

“Was Karen her girlfriend?”

 

Cassie smiled. “They were married. But they were together a long time before that. Mom came out the day that stupid Don’t Ask/Don’t Tell policy was revoked. It was the same day she was promoted to colonel. It was a hell of a party. They were married a couple of months later. I miss Karen... I know Mom does, too.”

 

“I’m sure she does. I’m sorry to hear about Karen.”

 

“She was a really great person. You would have like her, Sam.”

 

“I don’t doubt it.”

 

“What about you, Sam? Are you married or involved with anyone.”

 

“I almost got married, but I called it off a week before the wedding.”

 

“Sorry.”

 

Sam shook her head. “Don’t be. It wasn’t meant to be. I knew I didn’t love Pete like I did your mother; I was just too stubborn to admit before then. But at least I didn’t go through with it.”

 

Cassie’s jaw dropped. “Pete?! I thought you were–”

 

“I am. I am,” the blonde said with a chuckle. “The most obvious reason it wouldn’t have worked.”

 

“Then why did you get engaged to him?”

 

“I can’t answer that, Cassie. But it’s in the past.”

 

“So, anyone in your life now?”

 

“No.”

 

“What about you? Any special boy in your life?”

 

Cassie shook her head.

 

“A special girl?”

 

The young woman grinned. “No. No special girl either. I’ve been way too busy with school to even think about getting serious with anyone. I have dated, but nothing serious.”

 

The two women spent over four hours talking and catching up.

 

~~~

 

“Hello?”

 

“Hey, Mom, it’s me.”

 

“Hey, Cassie. How are you?”

 

“I’m good.” She paused for a beat. “Mom?”

 

“Yes?”

 

“Could you do me a favor?”

 

“It depends on what it is, sweetie.”

 

“Could you come down to DC tomorrow?”

 

Janet frowned with concern – they’d just spent almost two hours on the phone that morning. “What’s wrong, Cassie?”

 

“Nothing’s wrong. I don’t get to see you very much because of my schedule. I just want to spend some time with you. Can you come down?”

 

“Yes, I can.”

 

“Good. How about lunch at my place?”

 

“Okay. Are you sure there isn’t anything wrong, Cassie?”

 

“Everything’s fine, Mom. I promise.”

 

“Alright. I’ll see you tomorrow then.”

 

“Great. See you tomorrow.”

 

Cassie hung up and let out the breath she’d been holding. She dialed the number on a slip of paper.

 

“Carter.”

 

“Sam? It’s me. Instead of going to lunch tomorrow, why don’t you come to my place?”

 

“Are you sure?”

 

“Yeah. I’ll fix lunch.”

 

“Okay.”

 

~~~

 

Cassie opened her door and immediately hugged her mother. Janet returned the hug, but also wondered at the tightness with which her daughter seemed to be clinging to her.

 

“Hey, sweetie.” Janet kissed Cassie’s cheek as they finally parted. She looked hard into her eyes. “Now tell me, what’s going on?”

 

“Can’t I just miss you?”

 

She gently cupped her daughter’s cheek. “Of course, sweetheart. I miss you, too. I don’t know what I’m going to do when you graduate. I’m just afraid your residency will be on the other side of the country.”

 

“Not going to happen, Mom. I won’t take a residency too far from home.”

 

Janet felt her eyes water. “Have I told you lately how proud I am of you and how much I love you?”

 

Cassie smiled. “Right back at you, Mom.”

 

They hugged again before going into the living area of the tiny apartment. They hadn’t even had a chance to sit down before there was a knock on the door.

 

“I hope you don’t mind, but I invited someone else to join us for lunch, Mom.”

 

“Ah, so that’s what this is about.”

 

“Don’t be mad.”

 

“I’m not, sweetie.” There was another knock. “Now let your friend in.” Janet smiled to herself as she sat on the couch, thinking she was about to meet a romantic interest of her daughter... so she was literally speechless when she saw who followed Cassie into the room.

 

Sam came to a complete stop and just stared. She felt the world tilt and she had to put a hand on the wall to keep from toppling over. Her heart felt like it was going to pound its way right out of her chest.

 

“... mall yesterday. I thought it would be great if we all had lunch together.”

 

Sam missed some of what Cassie had said, but everything seemed to right itself when the petite brunette sitting on the couch smiled.

 

“Hi, Sam.”

 

“Hi.” The air still felt a bit thin, but Sam didn’t feel like she was going to fall over anymore.

 

~~~

 

The three women had a nice lunch and talked, catching up on the last ten years.

 

“Cassie told me about your wife, Karen. I’m so sorry, Janet.”

 

“Thank you. We had six really good years together,” she was able to say with a smile since it had been about two and half years since Karen died. “What about you, Sam. Did you ever marry?”

 

“Came close, but no.”

 

Janet shook her head. “I still can’t believe you didn’t stay in the Air Force.”

 

The blonde shrugged. “It just got to be... It just wasn’t what I wanted anymore. I really love teaching and the science is fun again.”

 

“Then you made the right choice.”

 

“What have you been doing? Or can you not say?”

 

“When I left the SGC I was assigned to the Armed Forces Medical Intelligence Center at Fort Detrick.”

 

“And now?”

 

“I’m still there actually, only now as the CO.”

 

“Wow, I’m impressed.”

 

Janet shrugged. “It means a lot more paperwork and less time in the lab.”

 

Sam looked at the young woman who’d been sitting silently, listening and smiling, as the two older women talked. “And now Cassie’s following in your footsteps.”

 

“Yes, but not exactly,” Cassie said with a smile. “I’m not going to join the military and I’m going into a completely different specialty than virology.”

 

“What are you going to do?”

 

“I want to be a gynecologist, because...” her voice faltered and trailed off.

 

Janet reached over and covered her daughter’s hand with her own, giving it a squeeze. Sam didn’t miss the watery eyes of both Fraiser women.

 

“I want to help find a cure for ovarian cancer.”

 

“I’m sure you’ll do great no matter what you do,” Sam said softly.

 

~~~

 

At the end of a pleasant afternoon, after Janet and Sam exchanged phone numbers, Sam said her goodbyes and left.

 

Cassie turned to her mother. “It was really good to see Sam again.”

 

“Yes, it was.”

 

“So you’re not mad at me?”

 

“Why on earth would I be mad at you?” Janet asked, confused.

 

“Well, things didn’t end too well between you and Sam.”

 

“Oh, honey, that was a long time ago.”


~~~
 

 
Part 2

Tags: au, character: cassandra fraiser, character: janet fraiser, character: samantha carter, fandom: sg1, fic, pairing: janet/ofc, pairing: sam/janet, prompt filled, rating: nc17
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